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did not believe in marriage; she did not believe in
                                                              many things. He was a brilliant man, no doubt
                                                              about his genius, but when it came to life, I didn’t
                                                              approve. As an artiste I admired him and always
                                                              appreciated good work.
                                                               I wept and cried, kept on asking her “aren’t you
                                                              coming home?” and she did not answer at all. In
                                                              fact, the last day when I was leaving from Calcutta,
                                                              she didn’t even come to see me off, Bhupen da
                                                              showed up and he said “she will stay on with me.”
                                                              I felt let down by Kalpana. Children don’t know
                                                              what all parents go through to bring them up. I
                                                              realised crying was of no use because she had
                                                              already made up her mind. The first few months
                                                              of living with Bhupen da she did not respond to
                                                              us very much. And all I yearned for was to hear
        Kalpana with her mother in Germany                    Kalpana’s voice.

        It was difficult to find like-minded people. When      Kalpana and Bhupen da lived together and she
        Kalpana had left I thought she was coming back        managed his life. Bhupen da would perform in
        but I happened to open her cupboard and found         shows and that was their livelihood. He gave
        that everything was gone. She had left for good. It   music for her first documentary, and even later on
        came as a big shock and I burst into tears. I asked   all Kalpana’s films music was done by him. And
        Shyam to write to her, and he did, asking her         people who loved him would say the film is doing
        to come back and join him in film-making. She         so well because of Bhupen da’s music. Whatever
        refused. I was teaching in a school that time and     the people were saying – the music enhanced the
        as soon as the vacation began, I left to get Kalpana   film. I used to feel that if she would have remained
        back.                                                 in Bombay, her life would have been better. She
         Kalpana had begun to live with Bhupen da             had already worked with Shyam and she was a
        openly. I tried to convince Kalpana to come back      talented girl, she was ahead of her times.
        home with me. Yet she refused. The shock of not        Years later there was a slump and Bhupen da
        only her having left home for good but the way she    wasn’t getting work. When everything began
        was living crushed my heart. We had brought her       to slow down in Calcutta, Kalpana wrote to me
        up with such ideas and ambitions and there it was     saying she was coming back to Bombay.
        Bhupen da’s home, his way of thinking – and he
        was a difficult man. He would have mood swings,
        he had a temper, and he was an alcoholic. Though
        she says that her father was also a heavy drinker
        and she escaped from this home to another home
        thinking she will find happiness… but I don’t
        know, it felt the same. Bhupen da would always
        have a flask of alcohol with him.
         I saw her living with all that. They didn’t get
        married then but she was living like a partner. In
        the beginning Bhupen da could not accept their
        relationship because he was conscious of his
        image. And Kalpana was a person who wanted
        things her own way; she was very bold and
        unconventional right from the beginning. She          Memories are made of these
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